The hurtfulness of casual insults

People have no idea how much it hurts to when someone calls you an idiot for something especially when it's not your fault or other similar words(Like noob, retard, etc). I used to do it too, lightly throwing hurtful words or doing hurtful things to others. Not thinking much about it. I think it started a about 4-5 years ago I read this book/porn novel on the internet and the MC was talking about this and I had this "bling" atop my head like ... Damn I've been doing this since forever. Since then I've stopped doing it, and I've been paying attention to how much it hurts ... for no gain ... and no awareness ... like dammit.
People should casually give others compliments and well wishes! I know how much it can help, I started doing it to pick up girls at first, later it just became a habit, this started when I was really desperate to get laid ... (19/20) yrs old. It just feels good to compliment others sincerely so I've been doing it whenever I can. I've also started doing weird honest comments .. like .. "Your voice reminded me of the Team Speak bot." It's kind of an experiment?

Introduction

I just had this urge to blog my experience and feelings about this. I mean, I always feel tempted to write a short post complaining about how I feel in Facebook and then (oh shit) people will realize I'm depressed, that's not good ... thing. Telling someone makes me feel a bit better. At the same time I don't really wanna make my friends feel bad to drain their energy or anything, complicated, complicated. Yeah, I know I'm not the only one with problems. Yeah, I know there's hungry people in Africa. Maybe I should just dig a grave and hop down? No, I didn't think so. Always dreaming about how to stop being depressed. Get that wonderful girlfriend who'll make you happy? Right. Doing meditation to cure yourself? Sure. Trying to gym for a month? That actually helped a bit, until I missed a week fapped and got sunk to the bottom of the Ocean again. Psychiatrist? Been there, we worked on my confidence and it worked and I'm confident .... The problem is ... being confident doesn't mean you're not depressed *face slap*. Trying to play Path of Exile to forget everything and feel better? Actually worked until my arm/fingers started to hurt, great. So I've stopped playing intensely. I love to read books but lately my head starting to hurt from reading. Great. I can still listen to music, I suppose. I wish I had someone to hug all day, that'd be nice. No idea how to write a blog, just randomly typing.